To Mom and Dad

I simply need to know
I want you to see if you are proud of me.
What I contain
You have no idea of the suffering I endure inside, and you believe I'm okay, but below this grin, I'm carrying a lot of anguish.
Is a girl asking for assistance?
You say you care, but I can't bring myself to believe you, so I simply want to go.
I feel like a ghost, almost like I don't exist.
Without stopping to think, I do my best.
However, you ignore the fact that despite how hard you work, all you want to do is relax.

I just want to spend some time with you, but it seems like you couldn't care less.
The truth perishes because of all the lies you tell me.
Knowing that I am your only hope
But I need some time to adjust, and I want your help.
When I need you
Days go by
Nothing appears to alter.
When I don't see you, I often sob and ask the Lord to make sure you're okay.
I sometimes think I don't have any family.
Wondering what my life would be like if we didn't quarrel and yell at each other.

Just be honest with one another
How much do we care? You claim to care, but for whom?
I am aware of your struggles and wish I could remove them.
As long as we have each other, perhaps one day we can make something of this.
There is no living person that could replace my parents.