Why even try?

Think back to a time when everything was perfect.

when you eagerly anticipated waking up the following morning.

the last time you spent the entire night asleep.
when you at last experienced calm.
that everything will work out fine.

when all of a sudden your power, your hopes, and all of your dreams are lost.

"Please God, tell me it's a dream!" is all you can think to shout.

the dawning realization that it is reality.



You struggle against the conclusion.
Just a little bit of normality is all you need.

Despite your best efforts, all you can do is sob.

When you try to be furious with God, you actually get angry with yourself.

Why didn't I simply remain at home that day?
Why doesn't anything ever work out for me?

You get out of bed slowly.
Make the decision to try life once more.

You extend a hand.
Others reach behind.
Some even fail to return calls.

just when you believed there was nothing left to lose.
You do.

These people, who you believed to be friends, only wanted to take advantage of you.

You then recline, just wanting to sleep and wondering "why me"?

You no longer see a purpose to even get out of bed.



Then, out of nowhere, you hear
the ring of the telephone or
a door knocking sound.

Someone there to encourage you to persevere,
You are so much more valuable.

You start to cry as this other person speaks.
is curious as to why.

Attempting to say,
"I appreciate having you as a friend today.
Without you, I would have given up.
and passed away."

The "Why" has now been answered for you.

It serves as a reminder.
never to give up
to always try, too.

Now I understand and don't wonder why I'm crying.

I rise from my bed and attempt once more.