You were never around

Even though what you do makes me cry, I can't help but admit that I genuinely love you. You will always be my only father.

You weren't nearly the parent I needed, and you weren't always honest with me.
Except for the horse exhibitions you started, you've never made it to anything I've done.

All I want is to see you each day.
All I want is to wake up to your voice each morning.
You probably don't realize how much what you did tore me apart.

So for the time being, I'll just wait for the day when you mature and understand how much you've wounded not only me but also everyone else in the area.

You've attempted to acquire my love.
I was really very patient with you.
However, as I've gotten older and have more knowledge, I can't accept that.

I am unable to ask you for what I need.
If you ever gave it to me, I don't know.
I'm just curious: Have you ever cared deeply?