Insomnia (when I don't sleep)

The time is 3:50 am and I know that soon the cock will crow
Why I stay up so late every night is something I want to know

Many are times I get in bed early yearning for the arrival of a dream
Yet I lay awake, eyes closed because sleeping is harder than it seems

Don't you assume I'm up because of a girl for it won't sound right
If the girl of my dreams is the reason why I can't sleep at night

For in that state of sleeplessness, I'm flooded with regretful memories
I think of points I could have used in past arguments to win my adversaries

I become vulnerable to the voices in my head who gets me offended
By telling me I'm never enough and suicide is the only way I can end it

Whenever I fall asleep, my inner demons prey on me; their victim
But I know I'll never find rest until I find a way to defeat them

I'm optimistic that one day I will sleep peacefully, I believe I will
But for now as soon as day breaks I'm going to get some sleeping pills



REFERENCES 
Jude Umoren, 'insomnia' (online, 2021) <https://judeumoren.blogspot.com/2021/09/insomnia.html?m=1>.