Self reflection

I have not really had time for myself these past days and I know it is not good because I need to. So many needs and so many wants. Yet no money to fund this lifestyle I crave. Is this adulthood I was excited to join?. I feel like life should have come with instructional manual to help newbies live right. I know it is funny but I must jump to the conclusion that being alive is easy but living a life is hard. I saw a father of three who happens to be my neighbor, sit outside his house and stared blankly at the complete nothingness. I could tell he was swimming in the ocean of thoughts. I pitied him because I understood he was good through a lot. Now I know I must work hard so I can have everything I want and need. Because one thing I've learnt is that, nobody will help you when things go south.