Scared

Hello, I am Sadashiv Rameshwar Karnik, aged forty years, I am married and a father of two daughters, although not very rich, I earn enough to cover my stomach and sometimes to support my daughters and wife, this is my personal identity, what do you say, what do you do, something special. No o am an ordinary salesman in a clothing shop, and yes i own a house too, ancestral though own, no rent, that's one thing i always proudly say, why am i telling you all this, a few months ago my life was just Going straight, but the congregation, I want to ask you too, do you sometimes get bored of your straight life, don't you come, ah, it comes, no matter what happens, we are human beings, life is boring, we don't want the same in life, hey, let me get rid of it. How will it be, something happened in my life too, a special event that I can never erase from my life, which will always remain in my memory, sometimes I feel that whatever happened in my life had not happened, maybe a few days ago that I He was thinking something different, what is different is that I am better than others, that is, my friends, never even going to talk to any woman.
bus jal now palhal lavan , now talking about the point , i have two daughters one siddhi and one samriddhi out of which siddhi is in class 3rd and sariddhi is currently only in senior kg , yes i have put my daughters in english medium school , yes even if i am a salesman , no wife . She was saying, either that education is out of our reach and we can't afford it and besides, English language at home is limited to A for Apple, let alone speaking English but understanding it by reading English is a big challenge for us, experience of our great achievement time. I don't think their teachers make a whatsapp group of our parents and send the study of what was taught in the class today, sometimes they give information about which project to do and send it to school, sometimes information about holidays and sometimes they advertise that someone has not paid the fee yet. , Sometimes I feel like laughing, what happens in our time, even though I still remember the school days, how refreshing my mind is, where was I, whatever happens, I will drop my daughters so that they don't stay behind. In English school, since my elder daughter was already in that school, I had a little idea of ​​what kind of projects these KG children had, so luckily, I didn't have much trouble with my younger daughter's time, but her junior KG went very smoothly. We have decided that in the morning I will take the girls to school and my wife will take them home.

That day was a little different from other days, the girls had to be taken to school at 8:30 in the morning, so we used to leave the house ten to fifteen minutes earlier, on that day I brought them to school a little earlier, if not we reached ten minutes early. , the security had not opened some of the gates yet, we were waiting for the gate to open, my sparrows were still chirping, I was answering them as best I could, slowly all the parents started coming, once the gate opened I was tired of waiting, said bye to both of them. So I started the Activa and without even realizing it I hurriedly pulled out of the school road, I could see some more parents bringing their children, and suddenly my eyes fell on the two of them, a little boy and her,,,,,,,,,,his mother,
I was wondering whether to stop or not, because I had never interacted with any other woman before, in fact such a time had never come upon me before, they were both waiting on the road and they needed help, so I quickly parked my car right in front of them. Downstairs, she was ...looking at her son's knee and the boy must have cried a lot earlier but now he was calm and just standing there smiling.
"What happened, did it fall?" I asked once looking at her and then at him.
She didn't answer for a while before, she was still looking at how deep his wound was.
Then, without looking at me, she showed me the nearby pit.
"Is it too much?" I asked really worried.
"No, at least it doesn't look like that, I don't understand anything"
So she started to take him home again, but as soon as the boy took a step, he screamed loudly, his leg was twisted and it was evident from his screams that he was in great pain.
She was shocked and worried by his shouting, she didn't know what to do now, he couldn't walk and the main road was very far from the school road, the rickshaw would have met from there, I could tell from her movement that it would not have been possible for her to pick him up and drive. Kalal, but she was not ready to ask for my help on her own,
So then I said to her, "Where do you live, sit down, I will leave." "No aho, I will take him" So she picked him up and tried to walk four steps, but as she was not used to it, the weight of her son could not carry her.
"Hey, sit down you two, why am I leaving you like this" So I reluctantly picked up her son and sat in front of me and started the car, she came and sat behind me.
While the car was moving, she was showing me the way to her house, turning, and while in the traffic, she was watching her sad face from the right side mirror of the car. was watching Once she reached her building, I dropped her son down and was going to go up to her house as humanity but she was the one who called me loudly “Hey Shankar” as “bus bus thank you” Shankar was the security of her building, Shankar picked up her son. Took it and he started walking towards the lift, then she also left looking here and there without even looking at me.
I thought, what a woman, she left without looking at me when she came home, do you come to our house, have some tea, well, call her home once or let's go for tea, but at least she looks at me when she leaves, if not, she will always be with me. I kicked the car saying in my heart that I want to help others, let's go to Sadashivarao shop, otherwise a great war will start there.
From this morning till the lunch break in the shop, due to a lot of customer attendance in the shop, I did not even get a hand to look at the mobile phone, I opened the lunch box and started eating quietly looking at the mobile phone, there were many WhatsApp messages in the mobile phone, good morning, some good thoughts, some poems, some Articles, latest happenings, interesting videos etc., scrolling through the mobile looking at all of them and finally another new number appeared at the bottom, there was a voice missed call from that number, and a message saying “thank you very much”. , I went and looked at the DP of that number, Arecha is the morning boy whom we left at home, oh but in the morning this lady left without saying anything and without even looking at me and now she is messaging me, but wait a minute where did she get my number, I He did not give it himself.
I immediately messaged her “Hello...”

In the next few seconds, a “Hello, thank you again for the morning” followed by a clasped hands emoji,

"Hey what's the matter" was my reply.

"Yes but thank you very much anyway"

"How's his leg now" I said, intending to continue our conversation.

"The doctor went to see him, gave him painkiller, he said he will get better in two-three days"

“Wow, nice, Nibhaval in a nutshell”

"yes"

Now what to say next, let's say bye but I don't know, I had to talk to her some more, I could feel something from her behavior in the morning that she is not talking openly because she is somehow afraid. I was very curious about her.

"What is your name, what is your name?" I said with the intention of continuing the conversation.

"Ashvat"

"Oh wow, that's a nice name, and your name" I asked once.

"Sou, Talpade" was the only reply and then she went offline.

I started to wonder if she was angry or not, because I had never directly interacted with any woman before, how much better it would have been if they had a training class on how to talk to women. I understand, but Sadashiv, why are you thinking so much, there is a lot of work ahead, err..... You don't have to ask where she got your number from, don't repeat the message or else we will meet again near school, we will ask sometime.
But later she was not seen near the school for many days, and if I talk to her on phone or message, she would block me, I had no idea about her behavior, I actually forgot her after four days, and that morning Talpade Bai was seen for eight days. Zal, Ashwat's leg was completely healed now, who was crying and fussing that day, but now he was walking very well, I followed him in the car with my daughters, they were both talking and chatting, after dropping the children to school, I I thought Talpade Bai would talk to me but she didn't even recognize me, I thought it was a bit miraculous, I was almost smiling at her but she was ignoring me, I thought I should help these women and then she didn't even recognize me, oh But you are the one who always asked to help you. Now she doesn't want to get to know you. What are you going to do to him?

After that I also passed her at a brisk pace without even looking at her, there was a lot of work till two in the afternoon, today the owner gave me the task of counting the stock, I didn't even feel like drinking water or emptying the stomach tank, but now the crows in my stomach were screaming. I washed my hands and sat down to eat the dabba, today my wife gave the dabba my favorite vegetable with a lot of tomato, I was already hungry and I literally collapsed on the food. Had two snacks and I remembered my mobile, I took out my mobile and saw a message from Talpade lady, “Have you eaten?” She had sent the message an hour ago, but she was still online. Ticked as if she was waiting for my reply on my profile, she read the message immediately, so I also messaged her saying “Tumch Jhal Jhalan”. It was also read quickly and sent a “yes” and a cheeky smile emoji, for a moment she seemed to be smiling at me, I was looking at my mobile with the grass in my hand, never taking my mind off the food, wondering what else to say to her. Went offline quickly, and pretty much her dp and last scene also stopped showing, does that mean she blocked me? , now she was talking nicely, and what happened in the middle, she literally threw the mobile aside and started eating furiously, after eating, drinking water and going back to work, but still first I checked whether there was any message on the mobile phone, there was no message, I was upset. But later she thought that she didn't want your messages as a coward. Oh, but if that happens, why did she message me first, why did she ask why did she eat, and then when I started talking, why did she block, anyway, you shouldn't think about her so much. There is no reason to give importance to her, it is not good that you threw the phone with me in anger, if something happens to the mobile phone, are you going to get a new mobile phone immediately, no, then think about it, I started working with the phone in my pocket.

When I went home at night, while handing the empty box to my wife, she looked at me, hoping that I would say something, if I asked, "Vegetables", she asked "Oh yes, it was very beautiful" and went inside happy. But the memories of the afternoon came back to me, I took my mobile out of my pocket, and again checked her message, there was no message and she had blocked me, I put the phone aside saying let's go,
Had a nice chat with the girls, Talpade bai was completely out of my mind then, picked up the phone because I wanted to set the alarm for the morning, and the chala I had was not letting me sit down, I went to Talpade bai's profile again, but at that time I saw her online, i.e. I was unblocked by her now, and had changed the DP photo, I checked her DP like Adashya, her photo on DP with her complete family, husband, her son and her, Aswat was by the father's side, and was smiling a lot, her husband said to her. A hand was placed on her shoulder, although she was the mother of a five-year-old son, Talpade Bai was well-built, not too fat, not too thin, her fair complexion and her big eyes, I could see her so well for the first time, I zoomed in on her face. A long nose, a medium sized profile, her thin lips parted in a slight smile, her curly hair tied high back, still pulled back a little, her blue saree exposed, I was zooming in on her again and again. He quickly moved my finger over her face, on her cheek, I was going to move my finger near her lips but accidentally my finger touched the right side and quickly her husband's face zoomed in front of my eyes, at that moment I was quick, as if he had caught my theft. , because he was smiling in the photo, ok otherwise his original black color with bushy mustache and tall body, he must be in the police force, I was extremely upset after seeing his photo.
The next day morning as usual she saw me in the school premises, I saw her but I deliberately did not pay attention, because I knew that the Talpade lady who appears near the school in the morning does not even show me simple recognition, and the same lady later inquires why she has eaten, I pay attention. Although not giving it, the eyes were constantly on her, and at one point I felt that she was also sneaking a look at me, what was she really looking at? I looked back from the right side mirror of the car and Talpade lady was walking behind the car and was staring at me. Why are you looking at me like that, I didn't stop I literally ran the car over,

Even when I came to the shop, that single gaze of Talpade Bai did not leave my back, why did she look at me like that, today I was constantly looking to see if her message was coming, even if it was afternoon, she did not receive any message, not even if it was late afternoon or evening. I don't know why I didn't send the message today, maybe the husband is at home, yes, that's because, I came home at night, my Samridhi sat on my lap and said, "Dad, today Miss beat Ashu a lot in class."
"Who is Ashu, and what will he do"
"His name is Ashwat but we all friends call him Ashoo, he left many pages while copying and writing on the board in class today, so miss hit him"
"What, I was killed for leaving the pages, what was your friend's name?"
“Ashvat……Ashvat Talpade”
Hey, this is Talpade Bai's son, why didn't I send a message today, when I was sleeping at night, I checked again to see if she unblocked me, but no, her DP was not visible.
In the morning I didn't go to drop the girls to school, I was going to work late because I was feeling a little fever, I was lying down but I didn't sleep because I used to wake up at the usual time, I woke up and sat checking my mobile phone after twelve last night. I saw in it some message of loneliness, man's worthlessness, life is a compromise, I had an idea of ​​her mood by looking at her, but even if she said no today, the seal was sealed, make sure to call her after going to work and find out I started taking it, then the wife had left the girls at school.
"Why did you want to go late today?" she asked after seeing my bath.
"Yes, I'm leaving, I'm fine" I said to answer something.

She didn't say anything further, nor did she ask a single question.

Not if she went to work, but after an hour or an hour and a half I got a little relief, I came out of the shop and called her.
“Hello, Mrs. Talpade”

"Speak" her quiet and expectant tone of my phone, I felt a wave go through me.

"How is Ashwath, he doesn't need much" I started talking.

"Hey, hey, even forgot after noon, Samriddhi will tell you"

"How do you know, I mean you know because they are in the same class"

"No, I will know yesterday when I went to Ashwat's class"

“So yes, the rest...”

"The rest....OK" she stopped after saying that much.

I didn't know what to say next, I wanted to ask her, what's wrong with you, you can tell me, I'll listen, even as long as you talk, but I didn't say anything, I didn't want to talk, and then the owners called me. Marli, she listened most of the time, she hung up the phone without saying anything.

In the afternoon I was going to message her myself, but seeing that she blocked me again, I was very angry, I finished my meal in a hurry, actually I was feeling very restless today, maybe it was because of a little fever in my body, but in the morning when we met her When I was talking, I didn't feel anything like this, so why do I feel this sickness now, after telling the owners, I went out to relax my legs, instead of going to the main road in front of the shop lane, I turned to the left, there was a step of a leaf and went there. I bought the budishop, and while chewing the same, stayed there for some time, again took out my mobile from my pocket to check, she was still blocking me, I entered the shop again,

A Pathmori lady was standing looking at the sarees, but she was not paying attention to the sarees, she was looking for someone in the shop, I deliberately started walking towards her side to see her face, it was Talpade lady, I was very happy to see her.

"Oh wow, buy a saree, that too in our shop"

She just smiled in response.

"Speak, which saree shall I show you"

"Show Any, Latest"
Saying "latest, latest, latest" I chose three or four sarees from the crowd of sarees and laid them in front of her.
She was just looking at the sarees but not liking any of them, I was showing her two or three more varieties, talking to her a lot about the yarn changes, colors, prints of those sarees, she was just moving her hand over each saree and looking at me from time to time. Yes, I showed her a total of twenty sarees, when I was confused whether to show the twenty one saree or not, she said "enough, I don't like any saree" so she walked out straight away, the owner was standing looking at me with great anger, "Are you stupid, After showing the first five sarees to the shopkeeper, knowing whether she wants to buy or not, remember that if you repeat the time pass, as it was a lady you know, will you show her the whole shop, I think she will buy at least four good sarees?
I didn't think anything of what the owners said, because it was the habit of the owners, I was really surprised by Talpade lady, she came here after breaking such a long line and left without buying anything. , she doesn't have any knowledge, from where she got my mobile number, address of my shop, asking her doesn't even open her mouth, at first she blocks me for a long time, but next time, if anything happens, I will give her my number and address of the shop first. No matter what happens, he will ask where he got it from.

It was saturday, the girls had school holidays on saturday and sunday, the school had given the parents to make a project so that the two days off would be worthwhile, and as usual the work fell on me, because my wife is not very educated, so she would miss something and the girls would yell at me for the project. I am not ready to do it at all. The name of the project is Indian currency, so what if Indian notes and coins are stuck on a stick and names are written below it. By mistake, I put the sticker note of 500 next to the sticker note of 2000 instead of under it. Actually, it would not have made much of a difference, but still I called Talpade Bai because I wanted a chance to talk. The phone kept ringing for a long time. Thought it would be cut now but she picked it up.
"Speak" the same calm and restrained voice,
For a moment I forgot what I wanted to say.
"Hey talk" Talpade Bai said again.
“What I say...have you started making projects” I would ask, eager to say something very important.
"No, why not..well" Talpade lady asked with surprise.
"Not yet, when will you start?"
“Karnik hey tell me why you called first”
“I called ...............” What will I say now because I called only to talk to her.
“Hello” Talpade Bai brought me to my senses.
"Hey...hey, what happened, I took the project to make it and by mistake the sticker note of five hundred was placed next to the s