That girl

I cannot be what you want me to be 
maybe that gullible girl 
that you could tell lies to
excuse me for right now,  I love myself 
tripping me, then watching me fall 
fall in love 
first they give you butterflies then trauma 
I am not stuck with you 
because I’m stuck with me 
Just say my eyes are covered 
just say my love transcends to a place of self disregard 
who will lift me up? 
not you. 
let’s say I say no 
will you listen? 
Thought suppression, the only thing keeping me till now 
guess who is doing the blame game? Not me 
you’re not trying to loose 
baby you’re a wreck 
baby I’m a wreck 
you don’t make it easy for me 
I’m literally fighting for my life 
i come here with my words, naked and vulnerable to create a space where I can give my words without thinking of being judged.