Hey, I just wonder

Hey.
I wonder what you’re doing right now.
If you’re smiling at his texts.
If you’re on a video call, walking around with his T shirt and nothing else.
If you’re with him, lying on his chest, as he tells you his problems, and you find solutions 
Cause that’s what you do best

Hey.
I wonder if I cross your mind.
If for once you’d ever thought the implications of the things you’ve done to me.
If I sleep better now, or if I’d have a hard time concentrating.
If I’m dead inside, if the world excites me.

Hey.
I wonder if he’s better than I am.
A better listener, a better kisser?
Would he move mountains for you?
Does he keep his promises?
Does he have the understanding we did have?
Does he tolerate your shortcomings?
Does he love you the way I did.

Hey.
I wonder if I’ll ever send this.
Or if you’ll ever get to read it.
If I’ll give love a chance
Or if it’s forever lost.

Anny.