Forget

I am currently at an event and the only thing that is on my mind is why I’m not on my bed. 
I have lost the joy of being around people 
i have also lost the joy of being by myself. 
Re reading old messages
revisiting memories 
riding on nostalgia 
ugh 
No more words left in me 
I’m an empty shell 
I wanted to create a playlist but what is the use 
I mean it will just let me remember 
and I am trying to forget. 

currently at the club 
about to take shots to forget 
guess who’s going to get so tipsy she can’t stand on her feet 
meeeeee
my head is pounding from the noise in the name of music in the club 
But whatever it’s a welcome change from being in bed 
a daddy is twerking showing he is already wasted

tonight the plan is to forget