Absolute truth

My sweetheart, I wanted to express my feelings, my thoughts, and what depresses me.
I want to share with you the things that make me happy and sad.
Therefore, you can tell that my love is sincere and real.

Not a single minute each day
without you in it, it goes by.
Your voice, your body, your touch, and your skin.
I really miss all of these moments.

Our souls, I just know, will never part, but circumstances and distance can be so overwhelming even if you are so present and so deeply ingrained in my heart.
They close doors, cast uncertainty, and we start pointing the finger.


Despite having the best of intentions, there are some of my behaviors that feel terribly wrong.
They are excruciatingly painful and unbearable, and you feel that everything is so unjust.

There is nowhere to hide; there is no way to escape yourself.
You're just in such great pain.
Both your pride and your emotions are wounded.

Then I start to fear that if I stay.
Shall it be unwise and will I get in the way of you?
I am afraid I am completely not what you need.
That this reality will break and bleed my heart, too.

I wipe away my tears as I sit here and wish you could kiss away my worries.
If only you were aware of how much I crave and miss your touch and affection.

I understand that I cannot escape my thoughts and my fear, and that at these times I appear far away, but you tear down these barriers with the power of your love, and I am then filled with the blessings of God above!

In spite of the suffering, I dream about you because my love for you is so strong.