Michael Jackson

BYqe...FixS

2 Feb 2024

Michael Jackson (MJ); He was born in 1958 as the 7th child of a family of 9 children. His father, Joseph; he was a worker; He loves music very much, plays the guitar as an amateur, is cold, distant, and does not hesitate to use violence when necessary; A despotic and flirtatious father. Her mother, on the other hand, was quieter, more harmonious, religious and kind. His mother, a Jehovah's Witness who left Protestantism as a sect; He was trying to raise his children according to strict religious rules. As time passed, Michael, Latoya, and Rebbie would become the most religious of them all. They had 9 children from his father's second marriage and his mother's first and only marriage: 1950, 1951, 1953, 1954, 1956, 1957, 1958, 1961 and 1966. One child for almost every year except the last sibling, Janet. A poor and crowded family... We do not know how long MJ's mother breastfed him, whether she had children with such frequent intervals, whether willingly or because she was not protected. All we know about that period is; Katherina's (Michael Jackson's mother) depression and her attempt to clarify her boundaries and stance towards Joseph.

Michael's first memories of his mother are; The song 'You Are My Sun Shine' sung by his mother while hugging him. He remembers his father usually beating or scolding him. MJ describes their first house by saying, "When you entered the front door and took 5 steps, you would arrive at the back door." His mother and father are in one room of a two-room house; In the other room, all the brothers sleep on a three-story bunk bed, and three sisters sleep on a sofa bed opposite. A mother trying to take care of 9 children in a small house... When we look at the birth frequency of children, we think that none of them can actually breastfeed their children properly, cannot breastfeed sufficiently, or that the basic needs of the oral period cannot be met adequately.They had a very difficult time financially; MJ remembers that they had a very hard time living. One day, his older brothers took his father's guitar and started playing and singing secretly from their father. Their mothers support their sons and keep their secrets from their father. Because Michael Jackson did not allow his father to play outside with other children at that time; 'We were never allowed to have fun on the street like other children,' he says. Father Joseph; After a while, he learns that his sons are interested in music, he first gets angry, but after he calms down; He is thrilled with his sons' talent. Joseph always has big dreams, he is an ambitious and vindictive man. He wants to be a leader, to be the greatest; He always gives the same advice to his children for years.

There are winners and losers in the world; My sons will never lose!'

The Jacksons' music now takes the form of a band; A group of 5 sons. 'The family has never been this close,' the brothers say. 'Everyone was hanging out on the street and singing with their bands, but we weren't allowed. We were so isolated from everyone around us. 'We had no friends.' For years, this condition made it difficult for Michael to make friends and approach strangers. And after the age of 25, he starts looking for the friends he could not meet or find in his childhood. But he stubbornly fails to realize that he is too late for a close playmate

Joseph makes his children work for long hours and sits in front of them with his belt in his hand. Children work constantly because they know the consequences of the slightest mistake they make. We know that as Michael grew up, he moved away from Joseph as much as possible and got closer and closer to his mother. 'Even though he had nine children, he treated each one as if he were an only child,' Michael said in an interview in 1991. And he adds, 'I can't imagine living without a mother's love.' However, what is striking and perhaps suspicious is; Michael raised his 3 children alone without their mother. Michael, who likes to be mysterious and charismatic; It was never clarified whether he was asexual, homosexual or bisexual. Even though he knows the importance of a mother in a child's life; He prefers to raise the two children he had through artificial insemination separately from their mothers by paying a certain fee to their mothers. He allows his other child, which he had from another surrogate mother, to grow up without ever knowing his mother. Did she see herself as a woman or as the mother of her children? We can't help but think. In particular, he stated that he literally kidnapped children with his placenta as soon as they were born and took them to his home; Was it because she never allowed her children to spend time with their mother that was related to the woman inside her or was it because she was on the verge of narcissistic traits?

Even though Michael is five years old, he stands out among the group with his energy and showmanship. He loves being the center of attention. When it was decided that he would be the lead singer of the band; The feelings of Jermaine, who was the lead singer of the band before him, are hurt (Jermaine is his older brother, born in 1956) and he feels left out. On top of the rivalry between brothers, there is also a musical rivalry. Because musical competition is the only way to gain their father's favor. The person who competes with Mıchael the most and criticizes him the most throughout his life is his older brother Jermaine.

Joseph to the other brothers; He gives Mıchael as an example, especially in terms of dance. But Michael is not happy with this situation; 'I didn't want to be singled out, I didn't want to be an example. My brothers would look at me as if they were offended; because they couldn't do what was shown like me,' he adds. This situation; namely little Michael, father's favorite; It angers the other brothers, but it never escalates into a fight. The brothers were interested in sports and cars, while Michael was never interested in football or cars. He could not compete with his siblings in this regard. Her only competition was dancing and music; 'I don't like baseball,' he would say. 'This much; There is no other reason.'

His mother, who is religious; He is disturbed by the change in the family's priorities, and suddenly the goal turns from making music for fun to working to make a living. Joseph constantly enters his children into competitions and they start going out clubbing on the weekends. They win every amateur talent competition they enter; because their father always acts as their manager with the same sentence. Joseph was very proud to be black, he said so at every opportunity. He would say that we are equal to white people, we have no difference, we can do it too. Was Michael having his skin lightened really because he had vitiligo or lupus? Or did he want to be white? He was the first black singer whose video was broadcast on MTV, but was his black skin always standing in the way of the success he wanted? Once to his manager; He said, 'If I were white, I would sell much more, no one could beat me.' But the real truth is; If he didn't have black sympathies at the level of racism of his father. Being black meant being his father's son, but he wanted an elegance in white and make-up, not the son of Michael Joseph.

t was a bit confusing for the children who were playing in nightclubs until the morning, seeing their fathers with other women over time, and being in all kinds of places where alcohol was consumed. Especially since Mıchael was the youngest, he was very affected by this situation. She had seen her father cheat on her mother many times, but she felt remorse for not being able to tell this to her mother. While her mother was putting them to sleep in the evenings when they came home, she would talk about the virtues of being a Jehovah's Witness and ask what her father was doing. Mıchael never told him the truth, but increasingly he talked about his father and his older brothers who, like his father, were with different women every night; She had come to hate sexuality. 'I don't understand how they do this,' she said. 'How can they touch two different women in the same night? I won't be with anyone until I get married.' He did what his mother said; In order to wipe away the tears of his idealized 'good' mother, he said at every opportunity that being gay was against his religious beliefs, and he had no known female lovers until he married Elvis Presley's daughter Lisa.

The Jacksons rose to fame over time, signing a deal with Motown in 1968 and releasing their first album, Jackson 5, in the early 70s. They became the top representation of black pop and soul vocal groups worldwide. Not only Michael, but all of Joseph's other children also despised him and expressed anger and violence towards him. Most of them married and left home at a young age. Michael, at only 30 years old, was able to move to the famous Neverland and separate from his mother.

As a child, Michael was outgoing and cheerful, but in adolescence, he became introverted and shy, avoiding eye contact. His shyness stood out among his older siblings. However, when he performed on stage, he transformed into a different person – confident, vibrant, and always smiling. He often expressed that the stage was his true family and where he felt safest. The spotlight became more important to him than his own mother. This pattern of becoming more reclusive as his fame and wealth grew would continue throughout Michael's life.

Even though Michael was very fond of his mother, never spoke badly of her, and declared her holy; Wasn't he angry with him for handing him over to his father, for not intervening when his father was beating Michael? Only once did Joseph try to inflict violence on Katherina, and that time his mother Katherina stopped him harshly. But she did not do the same for her children. In other words, somehow, he did not say no to his children's constant work by their fathers, their school life ended in some way, and most importantly, he turned a blind eye to the violence. Was Michael's object of identification really his mother? Diana Ross or Elizabeth Taylor? Over time, Michael began to admire older, famous and beautiful women. He wanted to smell like them - Michael had worn women's perfumes all his life - look like them, be gorgeous and charming like them. She wanted to be like them, elegant and delicate. Make-up, well-groomed and beautiful. Diana Ross had warned Michael not to use make-up for years. There have always been rumors such as she went gray to be like Eizabeth Taylor and wanted Diana Ross's nose.

In fact, Michael Jackson's plastic surgery craze started with nose surgeries, he had more than ten nose surgeries. Over time, when there is not enough cartilage left in the nose, an additional plastic false nose is made; eyes, cheeks; her lips. Even his chin has aesthetics. MJ's problems with her own body image begin in childhood, when everyone compares Michael's nose to her father's nose.

His brothers call him -big nose. MJ is very disturbed by this. But he has nowhere to escape; because MJ's real name is Michael Joseph Jackson. So Michael carries his father's name in his name. After every plastic surgery; "I don't look like my father, do I?" he asks his manager. 'I don't want to look like him, I don't want to be him.' But over the years, some personality traits; He will realize that he is very similar to his father in terms of ambition, stubbornness and hatred. Over the years, she tries to escape from her father and become an elegant and beautiful person, an elegant and beautiful white woman, or an elegant and beautiful white woman. He pushes the limits of the mind and wanders within the limits of his own mind.

If we go parallel with his life story; He leaves home for a while and lives with Diana Ross. Her mother is still in their first home and has not moved in with them. Michael was always watching Diana Ross and saying, 'I want to be just like you, Diana.' Thanks to Diana Ross, their fame gradually increased and Michael said to his siblings at that time; 'I realized at an early age that if someone told me something that wasn't true about me, it was a lie. But if someone told me something that wasn't true about my image, it was public relations, advertising. And advertising was always a need.' Michael said these things when he was 12: He learned from Diana Ross. He was one of the most talked about celebrities throughout his life, and his commercials were almost terrible.With concerts, albums and increasing fame, Michael was increasingly coming to the fore. Joseph was very disturbed by this situation, and although he insisted, "All my sons are equal, they all have the same talent," it was too late, Michael's light could be noticed from afar. However, as he grew older, he started to behave strangely. He was very interested in rodents, and his mother once found him feeding 30 mice in a cage under his bed. He said, 'Animals are my friends, they understand me, they don't hit me in the back like people do.' He was becoming increasingly lonely, he could not make any friends with his peers, he always liked making friends with adults, especially mature women. As you become more famous and rich, this situation will begin to reverse; Michael Jackson would increasingly be able to make friends with children, and only children. Being famous and being able to get whatever he wants in the world will gradually increase his regression. He will play with his toys at home and build his own playground, Neverland. He will constantly bring costumed actors from Disneyland to the house and act out fairy tales. He will sing songs in Peter Pan costumes and play with his little friends. He would start eating cookies, drinking milk and sleeping in the same bed.

Is Michael running away from screaming girls due to his sexual identity confusion or choosing good and compassionate women as his objects of identification? Was it because of castrating men like her father, or more handsome and confident men like her older brothers, with whom she could not compete in sports? Although the lack of basic trust is felt in his oral period, which he never gets enough attention, MJ's close employees talk about his obsessive features, anxiety, and his hoarding and hiding feature, which reminds him of anal period problems. MJ's identity formation, where preoedipal period problems are very obvious; When the conflicts and traumas experienced after the oedipal period are added; Narcissism bordering on psychosis, hours spent in front of the mirror that resemble body dysmorphic disorder, plastic surgeries, substance and drug addiction, and recurrent very severe panic attacks are added to the situation. In fact, now that I have researched his entire life along with a lot of his memories, I can see more clearly how rigid his superego is. We know that people who have both oral and anal problems have very rigid superegos. But even when MJ saw himself as the owner of the world; His superego never allowed him to say his sexual preference. Was it her internalized religious mother or her castrating father that stood in the way of this?

After a while, Michael leaves his family and begins to fly with his own wings. But this won't be easy; Both his father and brothers are constantly after him. We've still been trying to tour with Michael for years, or how much money can we make from him? They don't stop thinking. This feeling of distrust and use that Michael feels towards his birth family spreads to all his employees and his environment as a paranoid over-evaluation. He has not employed any maid at home for more than 3 months, and he constantly suspects that the phones are tapped or spied on. He builds a shell around himself, not allowing anyone to get too close to him, and sometimes talks to himself non-stop for hours. Over time, he starts to feel good just being on stage; 'When I'm on stage, I open up and I have no problems,' he said; 'This is the stage… Where God wants me to be'. He was repeating his mother's sentences because his mother had consoled him like this for years.

Michael Jackson still holds the record for the best-selling album in the world with his Thriller album. While he achieved great success with this album, he pushed the limits of his own power. In an imaginary race with Elvis Presley, constantly trying to surpass him; Even though he bought all the Beatles' songs and caused a rift with Paul Mc Carty; He no longer wants to see anyone as a rival. It should not be a coincidence that Michael, who repeats "I am the best singer of all time, I am number one, why do they call Elvis the king, I am the real king, oh my God, I am Michael Jackson", chose Elvis' own daughter to marry. Although it is said that this marriage was made to cover up child abuse cases and that it was somehow a front marriage; Michael was able to establish a close relationship with Lisa and find peace in her arms again; He explains that he had his first sexual experience with Lisa. However, Lisa Marie Prestley refers to MJ as 'He's a little kid.'

Over the years, Michael Jackson becomes one of the biggest stars of all time. Won't his enormous fame and fortune make one's head spin and drive everyone a little crazy? However, MJ's; Claims that he sleeps in an oxygen cabin, that there are many lifeless mannequins in his bedroom, that he is chasing immortality, behind those crazy lustful dances and crotch movements; There is a complex repressed sexual identity; Despite the allegations of child abuse, he continued his relationship with all the children around him, like an anal aggression, never straying from his own path; Michael, stubborn and lonely, is dragged towards an end...

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